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On the way to the bus stop,
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Bill saw somebody he
recognized walking towards him,
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but he couldn't
remember his name.
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He began to think
of things to say
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when they'd be close enough
to acknowledge each other.
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As they drew nearer,
their eyes locked,
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uncertain if the other
was going to stop to talk.
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The person greeted Bill,
as Bill mixed up the phrases,
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"Whats up?"
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with, "How's it going?"
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Confused, the
person blurted out,
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"Thanks," before he
knew what he was saying.
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Words caught in Bill's
throat and he replied,
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"Weh."
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They did a sort
of awkward half-turn
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and then continued on,
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now confident that the other
was not going to stop to talk.
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They never saw each other again,
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and a day later had each
forgotten the whole thing.
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Later that night, Bill sat
down and put on a big sweater
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but it only made him sleepy.
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In the supermarket, Bill
was always very careful
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to select fruit from only the
back of the produce piles,
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as the fruit in the front
was at crotch-level
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to the other customers.
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An old man who smelled of
gasoline held up an onion
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and said, "Big onion,"
to no one in particular.
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He smiled at Bill and
Bill looked at his socks.
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At the check-out counter,
Bill found himself
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behind a big guy
whose t-shirt read,
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"Second place is
the first loser."
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The check-out girl said,
"How are you doing today?"
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Bill said, "Fine
thanks, how are you?"
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She didn't answer.
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Bill felt used.
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As he waited for his next bus,
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Bill stared at a
torn shopping bag
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that was blowing in the wind
on the end of a broken pole,
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and anxiously sucked blood
out of a sore in the corner
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of his mouth.
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Bill dropped his keys
on the counter
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and stood there staring at them,
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suddenly thinking
about all the times
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he'd thrown his keys
there before...
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...and how many days of
his life were wasted...
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repeating the same tasks and
rituals in his apartment,
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over and over again.
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But then he wondered
if, realistically...
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this was his life...
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and the unusual part was his
time spent doing other things.
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Bill sat down and read
a celebrity interview.
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Then he watched the ants
crawl around in his sink.
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That night, Bill dreamt
of a monstrous fish head
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that fed upon his skull.
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In the morning,
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Bill felt really tired even
though he'd just been sleeping.
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His calendar had a photo of a
manatee on it for the month.
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It always seemed as though
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the manatee was staring at him.
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Bill sat in the living room
with a giant box of crackers.
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He thought some food
might help him get going,
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but felt kind of
strange eating in front
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of the television
without having it on.
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Pretty soon he was
watching a boxing match
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on a Mexican channel.
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He'd been watching a
lot of boxing lately
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but didn't really know why.
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In the 4th round there was
an accidental head butt
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that split open one of the
fighter's heads pretty badly.
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They showed it
over and over again,
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in slow motion.
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Before he knew it,
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Bill had eaten the
entire box of crackers.
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He felt really lousy
and didn't want to get up.
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He had a sudden urge
to talk to somebody,
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so Bill phoned his
ex-girlfriend and told her
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about the manatee
on his calendar.
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"Did you ever see the movie
about the giant manatee
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that attacked a
city?" she asked.
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"I think you mean giant
mantis, said Bill.
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"Oh yeah", she said.
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"Giant mantis."
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The next morning,
Bill felt even worse.
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Downtown, the hot smell
of manure blew past him
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as he walked.
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Bill soon came upon three
dead horses in the road,
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apparently struck down
by a large moving vehicle.
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"Well," he thought, "that
would explain the smell, then."
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He met his ex-girlfriend
during her lunch break
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and they took a
walk to the park.
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He noticed that every
time he was near her,
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she sort of moved away with a
tight-lipped smile on her face,
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as though everything were ok.
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Mostly they talked about death.
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They agreed that being buried
seemed too claustrophobic,
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and Bill didn't
want to be cremated
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after he'd read that the
intense heat boils fluids
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in the skull until
your head explodes.
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He decided that he'd
want his body shot off
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into space in a rocket ship.
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He figured it'd be too
expensive to launch
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the weight of his entire
body, but maybe just sending
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his head into space
would be good enough,
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preferably in front
of a little window.
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His-ex girlfriend said
she'd be really creeped out
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if she knew Bill's severed
head was floating around
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above her in space.
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Bill was given a new booklet
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at the clinic, discussing
potential memory loss
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in his treatment.
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Inside was a
cartoon character saying,
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"I don't know about you folks,
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but I could lose my
keys eatin' breakfast."
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His neighbor, trying to
be helpful but failing,
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cornered Bill in the parking lot
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to explain how
cryogenic scientists
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could freeze his brain in ice
until a point in the future
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when microscopic robots
could repair it.
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Bill daydreamed about
all the brains in jars
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he used to see at school,
how he used to wonder
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whether there were still somehow
pieces of individuals inside...
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...scattered fragments
of partial dreams
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or lost memories locked deep
within that dead tissue..
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...or whether this entire
archive is immediately erased,
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the moment that the body fails.
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He began to think of
people in a new light...
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how everyone's just little
more than that frightened,
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fragile brain stem...
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surrounded by meat and physics,
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too terrified to recognize
the sum of their parts...
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...insulated in the
shells of their skulls
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and lower middle class houses...
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...afraid of change,
afraid of decisions,
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afraid of pain...
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...stuck in traffic,
listening to terrible music.
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His neighbor stared
at him and said,
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"Last night, I dreamt
all my toes fell off."
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On the way to his front door,
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Bill's other neighbor said,
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"Sup, as in, "What's up?"
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Inside he noticed a
weird wet spot on his mattress
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that he didn't remember
being there before.
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Bill watched part of
a documentary program
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about a 5,000 year old ice
man that was found in Italy.
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Scientists explored
its colon and everything
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on live television.
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Bill wondered if the ice man
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could ever have imagined
this would one day
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have happened to him.
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That night, Bill dreamt
he was at the seaside,
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desperately throwing dead
bodies off of a little boat.
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Bill took a walk in the park
to try and get some fresh air.
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He noticed somebody had written,
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"I love you," in the
playground sand
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and he thought that
was really beautiful.
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As he continued on,
a sudden dribble
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of urine shot down his pant leg.
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That was unexpected.
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Then some little fat kid
with a deformed foot tried
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to sell him a
magazine subscription.
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Bill looked at the list
of magazines for sale
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and angrily wondered why they
didn't offer any Asian porn...
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Then he wondered
why he wondered that.
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On his way to the clinic,
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he found he had a little
trouble understanding people...
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Even his pamphlet
seemed different.
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The guy next to him at the bus
stop had the head of a cow,
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but Bill pretended
not to notice.
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His doctor said he had
some discouraging news:
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The latest tests ruled out
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the possibility
of further surgeries,
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and his current treatment didn't
seem to be making any progress.
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He wanted to start
Bill on something new.
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He couldn't think of any reason
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why Bill should be
seeing things though
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and asked him a
series of questions.
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"You have to understand that
your body is going through a
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lot of stress right now..."
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Bill picked up
his new medication,
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went home, and
masturbated for seven hours.
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He woke up the following morning
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and thought his room
seemed different.
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His mouth was bleeding...
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four of his teeth had
fallen out in the night.
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They looked sort
of like dog teeth.
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Everyone in the supermarket
looked like some sort of demon.
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And they all had gigantic,
bacteria-ridden crotches
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buried in the all
the goddamned produce!
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It felt like his
whole body was sparkling.
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His shoes felt as though
they were filling with blood
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and his hands
smelled like copper.
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When he got home, he found a
pair of Lion King slippers
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in his closet
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but had no idea whose they were,
or how they got in there.
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"The pipe is leaking!...
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The pipe is leaking!..."
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Bill could read the
thoughts of his waitress,
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who wore too much eye
makeup and had no self-esteem.
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Outside, horribly deformed birds
checked their voice mail...
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"I am made nervous by a clone
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that grows beneath
my closet..."
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"It's not as complicated as
that, we just don't like you..."
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"I am a man with a very large hat.
This means I am in charge."
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"I am sexually inadequate."
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"Why do you keep
treating me this way?"
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"Darkness...
darkness... darkness..."
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"The effects of
tranquilizers on animals
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at higher altitudes
are unpredictable..."
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"Why don't you come over
here and sit on my lap?"
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After lunch, Bill put on
the Lion King slippers
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and flew to the bus stop.
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Bill dropped his
keys on the counter
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and stood there staring at them,
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suddenly thinking
about all the times
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he'd thrown his
keys there before,
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and how many days
of his life were wasted...
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But then he wondered
if, realistically,
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this was his life...
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this was his life...
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this was his life...
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"The power of Christ
compels you!
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The power of
Christ compels you!"
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His mother came
to take care of him,
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all the way from Omaha.
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She was a waitress
and often smelt
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of baby powder and cheese.
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They spent a lot of time
together doing puzzles
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and watching television.
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One morning as Bill was staring
at the patterns in the carpet,
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she noticed a loose
thread in his collar.
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"How could you think
I'd ever want to hurt you?"
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she said, and
crumpled to the floor.
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In that moment, Bill thought
she looked really old.
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Sometimes the fluids in the IV
put a funny taste in his mouth.
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Bill awoke to find
beautiful sunlight streaming
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through his window.
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He tried to climb through it,
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but didn't have
the strength to stand.
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The next morning,
Bill actually felt pretty good.
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The day after that,
he felt even better.
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Then he felt a lot worse.
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But the following day,
Bill felt just fine.
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"I'm sorry, I just don't
know what to make of it,
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his doctor said.
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"Maybe Bill's body
is simply rallying
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before finally giving up."
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His uncle, whom Bill had not
even noticed in the room,
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had taken a lot of time off work
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to fly in all the
way from Tulsa.
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He looked vaguely annoyed.
251
00:16:06,882 --> 00:16:08,300
After another two days,
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they concluded Bill
was not going to die,
253
00:16:10,720 --> 00:16:16,725
so his mother had all of the
flowers removed from his room.
254
00:16:16,726 --> 00:16:18,852
She also had to have
his casket returned,
255
00:16:18,853 --> 00:16:21,438
at great expense
and inconvenience.
256
00:16:25,151 --> 00:16:28,361
Bill had to go back to
work the following Tuesday.
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00:16:28,362 --> 00:16:30,071
It rained for the
entire bus ride.
258
00:18:12,007 --> 00:18:14,968
Last week, Bill's class
took a field trip to the beach.
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00:18:16,178 --> 00:18:18,638
His half-brother,
Randall came along:
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A little boy in the special
class with aluminum hook arms,
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00:18:22,435 --> 00:18:27,063
whose mind was as
misshapen as his legs.
262
00:18:27,064 --> 00:18:28,481
No one at school really knew him
263
00:18:28,482 --> 00:18:30,483
because he always
rode a separate bus...
264
00:18:30,484 --> 00:18:32,360
...and was taught to stand
within the confines
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00:18:32,361 --> 00:18:35,613
of a tetherball
circle every recess.
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00:18:35,614 --> 00:18:37,365
In the late afternoon,
Randall was over
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00:18:37,366 --> 00:18:40,452
with the adults when he
spotted a gull overhead.
268
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His eyes burst with emotion
269
00:18:41,787 --> 00:18:44,330
and he suddenly took off
stumbling after it.
270
00:18:44,331 --> 00:18:46,750
Tears streaming
down his little face,
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00:18:46,751 --> 00:18:48,793
he stretched his
aluminum hooks as wide
272
00:18:48,794 --> 00:18:51,421
as he could towards
the sun, howling,
273
00:18:51,422 --> 00:18:54,048
"Booooooon!
Booooooon!"
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00:18:54,049 --> 00:18:57,469
and disappeared
into the deep blue sea.
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00:19:00,222 --> 00:19:03,057
The other kids were surprised
he could even run that fast.
276
00:19:05,352 --> 00:19:06,936
Bill's mother put a
heavy coat over him
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00:19:06,937 --> 00:19:08,521
whenever he left the house,
278
00:19:08,522 --> 00:19:09,939
for fear that he
might fall victim
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00:19:09,940 --> 00:19:13,276
to something called
"walking pneumonia."
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00:19:13,277 --> 00:19:16,070
She starting doing this the
winter after losing Randall,
281
00:19:16,071 --> 00:19:19,157
but then made him wear it every
day for the next five years.
282
00:19:19,575 --> 00:19:20,784
In the summers,
283
00:19:20,785 --> 00:19:24,621
he also had to wear a helmet
and asbestos safety gloves.
284
00:19:24,622 --> 00:19:27,040
These were the days
she rarely left the house
285
00:19:27,041 --> 00:19:29,375
and shaved the cat on weekends.
286
00:19:29,376 --> 00:19:32,212
On his sixth birthday, his
mother gave him a postage stamp
287
00:19:32,213 --> 00:19:38,426
and a piece of yarn and
hugged him for five minutes.
288
00:19:38,427 --> 00:19:42,388
His parents argued again
that night and she threw meat.
289
00:19:42,389 --> 00:19:44,265
His stepfather
stormed to the door,
290
00:19:44,266 --> 00:19:46,267
where he turned his
face up towards a hole
291
00:19:46,268 --> 00:19:48,436
in the ceiling and yelled,
292
00:19:48,437 --> 00:19:53,900
"I just can't handle this
god damned woman," and left.
293
00:19:55,778 --> 00:19:57,403
She stared at the front door
294
00:19:57,404 --> 00:19:59,447
and rocked there
in place, saying,
295
00:19:59,448 --> 00:20:04,327
"aaa aaa aaa
aaa aaa aaa aaa."
296
00:20:04,328 --> 00:20:06,037
Every now and then at school,
297
00:20:06,038 --> 00:20:08,665
he'd find a note from
her in his lunch box.
298
00:20:24,682 --> 00:20:28,560
His hair was
finally growing back.
299
00:20:39,071 --> 00:20:41,698
After completing the
clinic's daily memory quiz,
300
00:20:41,699 --> 00:20:45,910
Bill went to the city and saw
ants take apart a dead bird.
301
00:20:50,207 --> 00:20:52,000
Yesterday, he
spent thirty seconds
302
00:20:52,001 --> 00:20:56,045
trying to open his front
door with his mailbox key.
303
00:20:56,046 --> 00:20:59,007
It's been over a year
now since his diagnosis,
304
00:20:59,008 --> 00:21:00,550
when they'd stayed
up late drinking
305
00:21:00,551 --> 00:21:05,013
and Bill slept on the couch.
306
00:21:05,014 --> 00:21:07,098
In the morning, he sat
on the toilet seat
307
00:21:07,099 --> 00:21:09,851
and quietly watched her
put on her make-up.
308
00:21:09,852 --> 00:21:13,855
That afternoon, she
told him it was over.
309
00:21:13,856 --> 00:21:16,774
In the hardware store, a
nice kid with a skin condition
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00:21:16,775 --> 00:21:18,192
helps Bill find
the right battery
311
00:21:18,193 --> 00:21:20,528
for his wall clock.
312
00:21:20,529 --> 00:21:22,196
He had taken a walk to the park,
313
00:21:22,197 --> 00:21:25,700
but didn't really know
what to do with his day there.
314
00:21:25,701 --> 00:21:30,538
At home he makes toast,
but changes his mind.
315
00:21:30,539 --> 00:21:32,707
He's been having
trouble sleeping again,
316
00:21:32,708 --> 00:21:36,836
and realizes he's lying in
the dark with his eyes open.
317
00:23:32,995 --> 00:23:35,830
Whenever Grandma would visit
and he'd show her his drawings,
318
00:23:35,831 --> 00:23:38,750
she'd often imagine how easily
she could toss little Bill
319
00:23:38,751 --> 00:23:39,876
into the fireplace...
320
00:23:41,962 --> 00:23:44,088
...or even through
a thin window...
321
00:23:44,089 --> 00:23:47,717
...for he was still young and
quite small, and floppy...
322
00:23:47,718 --> 00:23:50,219
...and she reckoned light
enough for a woman of her size
323
00:23:50,220 --> 00:23:54,015
and strength to hurl across
the room several yards or more.
324
00:23:56,268 --> 00:23:58,436
In the middle of the night
she opens the drawer
325
00:23:58,437 --> 00:24:01,689
to find the preserved
cat head from last week.
326
00:24:01,690 --> 00:24:05,068
She can feel the fish
smothering her brain,
327
00:24:05,069 --> 00:24:07,570
and the magic scrubbing
of their furry little heads
328
00:24:07,571 --> 00:24:10,490
across her skin is
doing less and less good...
329
00:24:12,701 --> 00:24:13,826
...and she decides this is
330
00:24:13,827 --> 00:24:15,536
because their little
heads are of low quality...
331
00:24:15,537 --> 00:24:16,829
...and she needs
more of them...
332
00:24:18,207 --> 00:24:20,333
...many, many more of them,
from higher pedigree breeds...
333
00:24:20,334 --> 00:24:22,752
...little heads with richer
skin and better hair-dos
334
00:24:22,753 --> 00:24:25,254
and cleaner little ears
and clearer eyes...
335
00:24:32,888 --> 00:24:36,682
They said she had a tumor
and was suffering from seizures
336
00:24:36,683 --> 00:24:38,434
and dementia.
337
00:24:38,435 --> 00:24:40,228
Bill didn't know
what those words meant,
338
00:24:40,229 --> 00:24:43,481
but he had ideas.
339
00:24:47,069 --> 00:24:49,570
Grandma was born in
Bootblack, Wyoming,
340
00:24:49,571 --> 00:24:51,697
two years after
the great mud storms
341
00:24:51,698 --> 00:24:53,908
drowned all the hogs.
342
00:24:53,909 --> 00:24:56,828
Her father serviced
electric machines...
343
00:24:56,829 --> 00:25:00,832
...and once strangled a rock in
a fit of religious excitement.
344
00:25:03,001 --> 00:25:04,627
He enjoyed wood...
345
00:25:04,628 --> 00:25:06,921
...and telling the children
late-night stories
346
00:25:06,922 --> 00:25:10,591
of how his own Papa
used to tame the wilderness.
347
00:25:13,846 --> 00:25:17,098
He was a quiet, unassuming man
who was eating an onion one day
348
00:25:17,099 --> 00:25:18,891
when he was cut
in half by a train.
349
00:25:25,899 --> 00:25:28,109
Grandma's older brother
became a preacher
350
00:25:28,110 --> 00:25:32,071
who grew his mole hairs
long to purify his soul.
351
00:25:32,072 --> 00:25:34,073
In his early years,
he secretly fathered
352
00:25:34,074 --> 00:25:36,868
an illegitimate child
and smothered it one night
353
00:25:36,869 --> 00:25:38,119
in the abandoned stable.
354
00:25:41,373 --> 00:25:45,251
As he aged, he became plagued
with firebugs and once claimed
355
00:25:45,252 --> 00:25:47,253
to have seen an aquatic
creature make off
356
00:25:47,254 --> 00:25:50,548
with the sheriff's prize cow.
357
00:25:52,593 --> 00:25:56,554
He was eventually crippled
with lead poisoning and polio.
358
00:25:56,555 --> 00:25:58,806
And was killed by a train.
359
00:26:03,478 --> 00:26:05,271
Grandma's little sister, Polly,
360
00:26:05,272 --> 00:26:07,106
had beautiful golden hair
361
00:26:07,107 --> 00:26:11,152
and pounded at imaginary
animals with a hammer.
362
00:26:11,153 --> 00:26:15,907
She died at the age of eight
after contracting yellow fever.
363
00:26:15,908 --> 00:26:16,949
And catching on fire.
364
00:26:23,707 --> 00:26:26,626
After Polly's death, Grandma's
mother cut out her tongue
365
00:26:26,627 --> 00:26:29,545
and vigorously enjoyed
taking health tonics
366
00:26:29,546 --> 00:26:31,547
and prescription medications.
367
00:26:37,387 --> 00:26:39,722
A wild man wandered
into town that summer
368
00:26:39,723 --> 00:26:43,226
and beat the church
organist with a shovel.
369
00:26:43,227 --> 00:26:45,770
He defecated what looked
like a pile of blueberries
370
00:26:45,771 --> 00:26:48,522
on the family
porch and disappeared,
371
00:26:48,523 --> 00:26:51,359
howling into the marsh.
372
00:26:51,360 --> 00:26:52,777
Nobody knew that this wild man
373
00:26:52,778 --> 00:26:55,363
was in fact Grandma's
great-uncle...
374
00:26:55,364 --> 00:26:58,950
...a forgotten, unwanted child
who'd been fed carbolic acid
375
00:26:58,951 --> 00:27:02,912
and abandoned in the northern
woods fifty-two years prior.
376
00:27:02,913 --> 00:27:05,039
He ate mud and sticks
377
00:27:05,040 --> 00:27:07,917
and knew only how to
say the word, "Bible."
378
00:27:15,050 --> 00:27:17,510
He died alone in a field
one summer morning
379
00:27:17,511 --> 00:27:21,055
while dreaming of the moon.
380
00:27:21,056 --> 00:27:25,643
Six weeks later, a
sunflower grew out of his head.
381
00:27:25,644 --> 00:27:27,395
In their later years,
Grandma's family
382
00:27:27,396 --> 00:27:30,064
moved to the big city,
where her mother lived out
383
00:27:30,065 --> 00:27:34,277
the rest of her
days making jam...
384
00:27:34,278 --> 00:27:37,363
...and persecuting Jews.
385
00:27:37,364 --> 00:27:39,282
There was a bush in
front of their building
386
00:27:39,283 --> 00:27:41,534
in the shape of a heart
that made her cry
387
00:27:41,535 --> 00:27:44,287
every time she saw it.
388
00:27:44,288 --> 00:27:47,957
She died alone while Grandma
was away at boarding school,
389
00:27:47,958 --> 00:27:51,377
surrounded by
visions of phantoms.
390
00:27:56,174 --> 00:27:59,719
Grandpa died eleven years
before Grandma did.
391
00:27:59,720 --> 00:28:02,013
He used to sit next
to her every Sunday,
392
00:28:02,014 --> 00:28:05,808
but now she plays
his bingo card for him.
393
00:28:15,444 --> 00:28:17,361
Last night, Bill dreamt
he was young again,
394
00:28:17,362 --> 00:28:20,448
in a field with
friends at the seaside.
395
00:28:20,449 --> 00:28:22,825
A big happy seal barked
at them and bounded
396
00:28:22,826 --> 00:28:26,120
from the water to play soccer.
397
00:28:26,121 --> 00:28:28,122
He was pretty good.
398
00:28:28,123 --> 00:28:31,042
It was like an animal movie.
399
00:28:31,043 --> 00:28:33,336
Then the seal hit the
ball a little too excited
400
00:28:33,337 --> 00:28:36,464
and it flew over everyone's
heads and struck a little boy
401
00:28:36,465 --> 00:28:39,717
in an adjacent field
really hard in the chest.
402
00:28:39,718 --> 00:28:41,761
It seemed like maybe
he had a heart condition
403
00:28:41,762 --> 00:28:44,638
or something because
he wasn't moving.
404
00:28:44,639 --> 00:28:47,475
Everyone sort of froze.
405
00:28:47,476 --> 00:28:51,312
The seal retreated to the sea.
406
00:28:51,313 --> 00:28:55,858
Nobody knew what to do.
407
00:28:55,859 --> 00:28:59,236
He'd slept on his arm funny
and it felt sort of numb.
408
00:29:04,743 --> 00:29:07,078
Sometimes it sounds like
there's voices in the water.
409
00:29:09,122 --> 00:29:10,581
He's been putting
some weight back on
410
00:29:10,582 --> 00:29:14,001
and his doctor had said
that was good news.
411
00:29:14,002 --> 00:29:16,170
At the bus stop his
left testicle ached
412
00:29:16,171 --> 00:29:20,174
for no apparent reason and it
almost made him feel dizzy.
413
00:29:21,718 --> 00:29:23,594
Not much happened at work.
414
00:29:23,595 --> 00:29:26,514
Bill made a pyramid
out of three staplers.
415
00:29:26,515 --> 00:29:28,391
And the new guy
swallowed a paper clip
416
00:29:28,392 --> 00:29:32,937
and was rushed out
in a wheelchair.
417
00:29:32,938 --> 00:29:35,689
The guy in the next cubicle
over told Bill about a thing
418
00:29:35,690 --> 00:29:37,358
he saw on TV
419
00:29:37,359 --> 00:29:40,736
about identical twins
who were separated at birth
420
00:29:40,737 --> 00:29:44,907
but had individually grown
up to be serial killers.
421
00:29:44,908 --> 00:29:47,368
It was as though they
didn't have any choice
422
00:29:47,369 --> 00:29:49,787
in what they turned into.
423
00:29:49,788 --> 00:29:52,665
"Genetics is pretty
messed up, he said,
424
00:29:52,666 --> 00:29:55,793
as his chewing gum flung
itself from his mouth.
425
00:29:59,548 --> 00:30:01,424
At lunch he told Bill
about a physics book
426
00:30:01,425 --> 00:30:03,384
he was reading about time.
427
00:30:03,385 --> 00:30:06,262
How the passing of
time is just an illusion,
428
00:30:06,263 --> 00:30:11,892
because all of eternity is
actually taking place at once.
429
00:30:11,893 --> 00:30:14,353
The past never vanishes away,
430
00:30:14,354 --> 00:30:17,731
and the future
has already happened.
431
00:30:17,732 --> 00:30:20,776
All of history is
fixed and laid out,
432
00:30:20,777 --> 00:30:24,572
like an infinite landscape
of simultaneous events
433
00:30:24,573 --> 00:30:31,495
that we simply happen to travel
through in one direction.
434
00:30:31,496 --> 00:30:34,039
Bill made a joke that he could
have sworn he'd been told
435
00:30:34,040 --> 00:30:35,291
that somewhere before,
436
00:30:35,292 --> 00:30:40,296
but the guy just stared at
him like he didn't get it.
437
00:30:40,297 --> 00:30:43,215
At home Bill watched the
microwave spin his food
438
00:30:43,216 --> 00:30:46,469
and daydreamed about
the Galapagos Islands.
439
00:30:46,470 --> 00:30:48,762
He'd purchased the
new brand of paper towels
440
00:30:48,763 --> 00:30:50,598
that had hundreds
of little raised bumps
441
00:30:50,599 --> 00:30:52,099
across every sheet.
442
00:30:58,940 --> 00:31:02,485
He found a message on
the answering machine...
443
00:31:02,486 --> 00:31:03,611
...that was sorry to inform him
444
00:31:03,612 --> 00:31:07,448
his mother had just
died that morning.
445
00:31:07,449 --> 00:31:10,910
They said she'd launched into
a fit of senile hysterics
446
00:31:10,911 --> 00:31:13,787
after skipping her medication.
447
00:31:13,788 --> 00:31:15,956
And was hit by a train.
448
00:31:17,042 --> 00:31:19,752
She'd reserved her own
funeral plot years in advance
449
00:31:19,753 --> 00:31:22,505
in order to be buried
alongside her parents...
450
00:31:22,506 --> 00:31:23,797
...but due to a clerical error
451
00:31:23,798 --> 00:31:26,383
had to be placed
fifty yards away,
452
00:31:26,384 --> 00:31:28,135
between a coffin full of rocks
453
00:31:28,136 --> 00:31:31,555
and a rich woman's
golden retriever.
454
00:31:31,556 --> 00:31:34,642
After the funeral, Bill went
through her old storage boxes
455
00:31:34,643 --> 00:31:38,312
and was surprised to find
a 100 year old photo album.
456
00:31:38,313 --> 00:31:40,189
Among the many
pictures of relatives
457
00:31:40,190 --> 00:31:41,774
and people he never knew
458
00:31:41,775 --> 00:31:46,695
were several photographs
of bacon... and lumber.
459
00:31:46,696 --> 00:31:49,698
He also found an old
series of strange portraits
460
00:31:49,699 --> 00:31:54,203
that had been neatly labeled,
for unknown future reference.
461
00:31:57,749 --> 00:31:59,917
Scattered throughout the
box were forgotten photos
462
00:31:59,918 --> 00:32:02,127
of himself as a young boy.
463
00:32:02,128 --> 00:32:05,714
He'd read once how each cell
in the body replaces itself
464
00:32:05,715 --> 00:32:08,050
and dies as the years pass...
465
00:32:08,051 --> 00:32:10,844
...how everyone is
slowly reconstructed
466
00:32:10,845 --> 00:32:15,015
out of continuously
changing pieces.
467
00:32:15,016 --> 00:32:18,477
It depressed him how foreign
the pictures seemed to him now,
468
00:32:18,478 --> 00:32:22,189
how his ridiculous, ingrown
cells had long ago stolen
469
00:32:22,190 --> 00:32:24,525
this happy dead kid's identity,
470
00:32:24,526 --> 00:32:29,280
and with his own life,
made a complete mess of it.
471
00:32:29,281 --> 00:32:30,322
Beneath the album
472
00:32:30,323 --> 00:32:33,033
was a folder of his
mother's medical records.
473
00:32:33,034 --> 00:32:34,827
Attached to her
initial diagnosis
474
00:32:34,828 --> 00:32:35,995
was a physician's note
475
00:32:35,996 --> 00:32:38,497
that strongly recommended
she never have a child.
476
00:33:16,453 --> 00:33:18,621
He pictures himself
having trouble breathing
477
00:33:18,622 --> 00:33:21,707
and waking to a roomful
of concerned faces.
478
00:33:21,708 --> 00:33:24,835
He'd been terrified
of dying his entire life,
479
00:33:24,836 --> 00:33:26,962
and as much as he'd
tried not to think about it,
480
00:33:26,963 --> 00:33:29,298
death was always in
the back of his head,
481
00:33:29,299 --> 00:33:32,760
around every corner, and
hovering on each horizon.
482
00:33:32,761 --> 00:33:35,638
He'd brushed shoulders with
death on a few occasions,
483
00:33:35,639 --> 00:33:37,931
but in his carefree youth
it had almost seemed like
484
00:33:37,932 --> 00:33:41,435
an abstract, impossible thing
to ever happen to him.
485
00:33:41,436 --> 00:33:42,936
But with each passing decade,
486
00:33:42,937 --> 00:33:45,939
he began to gauge the
time he probably had left,
487
00:33:45,940 --> 00:33:49,026
and by his 40s, what he
considered his halfway point
488
00:33:49,027 --> 00:33:52,363
at best, he had come to
know just one thing:
489
00:33:52,364 --> 00:33:57,951
You will only get older.
490
00:33:57,952 --> 00:33:59,620
The next thing you
know, you're looking back
491
00:33:59,621 --> 00:34:01,455
instead of forward.
492
00:34:01,456 --> 00:34:04,750
And now, at the climax
of all those years of worry,
493
00:34:04,751 --> 00:34:07,294
sleepless nights, and denials,
494
00:34:07,295 --> 00:34:09,797
Bill finally finds himself
staring his death
495
00:34:09,798 --> 00:34:11,048
in the face...
496
00:34:11,049 --> 00:34:13,676
...surrounded by people
he no longer recognizes
497
00:34:13,677 --> 00:34:15,803
and feels no
closer attachment to
498
00:34:15,804 --> 00:34:19,306
than the thousands of
relatives who'd come before.
499
00:34:19,307 --> 00:34:21,308
And as the sun continues to set,
500
00:34:21,309 --> 00:34:24,603
he finally comes to
realize the dumb irony
501
00:34:24,604 --> 00:34:28,482
in how he'd been waiting for
this moment his entire life.
502
00:34:28,483 --> 00:34:31,985
This stupid, awkward moment
of death that had invaded
503
00:34:31,986 --> 00:34:38,325
and distracted so many days
with stress and wasted time.
504
00:34:38,326 --> 00:34:41,203
If only he could travel back
and impart some wisdom
505
00:34:41,204 --> 00:34:43,038
to his younger self.
506
00:34:43,039 --> 00:34:45,124
If only he could at least
tell the young people
507
00:34:45,125 --> 00:34:46,500
in this room.
508
00:34:46,501 --> 00:34:50,212
He lifts an arm to speak
but inexplicably says,
509
00:34:50,213 --> 00:34:53,549
"it smells like
dust and moonlight."
510
00:34:59,013 --> 00:35:00,305
He'd forgotten years ago
511
00:35:00,306 --> 00:35:03,100
to replace the battery in the
cheap wall clock in his kitchen
512
00:35:03,101 --> 00:35:06,437
and it was forever
stuck on 11 :57.
513
00:35:06,438 --> 00:35:08,188
He couldn't remember
why he'd put a clock there
514
00:35:08,189 --> 00:35:09,523
in the first place,
515
00:35:09,524 --> 00:35:11,191
since it was sort of
in an awkward nook
516
00:35:11,192 --> 00:35:14,945
around a corner where he'd
never wonder what time it was.
517
00:35:28,334 --> 00:35:30,127
Near the bottom
of the storage box,
518
00:35:30,128 --> 00:35:33,338
Bill found an old notebook
he'd never seen before...
519
00:35:33,339 --> 00:35:35,966
...filling the pages inside,
his mother had repeatedly
520
00:35:35,967 --> 00:35:38,844
practiced her handwriting,
so she could send him off
521
00:35:38,845 --> 00:35:41,096
to school with the
best-looking notes.
522
00:36:09,042 --> 00:36:10,292
He calls his ex-girlfriend
523
00:36:10,293 --> 00:36:14,421
and arranges to meet for
lunch after his check-up.
524
00:36:18,259 --> 00:36:19,426
This morning
he couldn't remember
525
00:36:19,427 --> 00:36:22,346
where he'd put the clinic's
daily memory quizzes.
526
00:36:37,403 --> 00:36:39,863
He decides to make toast...
527
00:36:39,864 --> 00:36:44,076
but for a long moment
can't think of how it's done.
528
00:36:44,077 --> 00:36:48,997
There's only a brown stain now
where that bird had been.
529
00:36:48,998 --> 00:36:51,500
His doctor has
nothing but good news.
530
00:36:51,501 --> 00:36:53,919
Bill has continued to
make terrific progress
531
00:36:53,920 --> 00:36:56,839
and he can no longer find
anything out of the ordinary.
532
00:36:56,840 --> 00:36:59,633
He tells Bill that if he'd not
known his medical history,
533
00:36:59,634 --> 00:37:03,303
he would probably give him a
clean bill of health today.
534
00:37:16,067 --> 00:37:19,570
On his way to lunch, Bill smiles
and thinks for the first time
535
00:37:19,571 --> 00:37:21,321
that maybe everything
will be--
536
00:37:40,049 --> 00:37:42,509
Bill was born
late Tuesday morning
537
00:37:42,510 --> 00:37:45,679
into a world of orange and red.
538
00:37:49,517 --> 00:37:57,357
He likes the way the aquamarine
rug feels across his hands.
539
00:37:57,358 --> 00:38:00,777
He likes sunbeams...
...and rockets...
540
00:38:00,778 --> 00:38:02,779
...and the smell of the
backyard in the early morning.
541
00:38:05,617 --> 00:38:07,910
He likes tigers...
...and trees...
542
00:38:07,911 --> 00:38:09,870
...and melted
chocolate ice cream...
543
00:38:09,871 --> 00:38:12,164
...and watching the
lights while falling asleep
544
00:38:12,165 --> 00:38:13,332
in the back seat.
545
00:38:23,134 --> 00:38:24,676
Someone sits on the shore
546
00:38:24,677 --> 00:38:26,762
and tells him how the
waves have been there
547
00:38:26,763 --> 00:38:28,722
long before Bill existed...
548
00:38:28,723 --> 00:38:32,184
...and that they'll still be
there long after he's gone.
549
00:38:32,185 --> 00:38:33,685
Bill looks out at the water
550
00:38:33,686 --> 00:38:35,562
and thinks of all the
wonderful things
551
00:38:35,563 --> 00:38:36,772
he will do with his life.
552
00:39:20,858 --> 00:39:22,609
"Bill?
Can you hear me, Bill?"
553
00:39:22,610 --> 00:39:24,152
"Look at
me, Bill. Look at me."
554
00:39:24,153 --> 00:39:25,028
"140 over 90."
555
00:39:25,029 --> 00:39:25,696
"Bill,
can you hear me?"
556
00:39:25,697 --> 00:39:26,780
"Bill?"
557
00:39:26,781 --> 00:39:28,490
Male voice, getting distant:
"Bill, can you hear me?"
558
00:40:03,985 --> 00:40:06,486
The last thing Bill can remember
559
00:40:06,487 --> 00:40:10,449
is speaking to
his ex-girlfriend...
560
00:40:13,619 --> 00:40:15,996
...bird wings...
561
00:40:15,997 --> 00:40:18,623
...and the smell
of black licorice.
562
00:40:47,653 --> 00:40:53,575
He watches dust float across
the sunbeam above his head.
563
00:40:57,038 --> 00:40:59,414
And then he goes back to sleep.
564
00:41:02,960 --> 00:41:07,047
His roommate's name is Matthew,
a paralyzed young man
565
00:41:07,048 --> 00:41:08,465
hidden by curtains
566
00:41:08,466 --> 00:41:11,760
who communicates to the nursing
staff through a row of buttons
567
00:41:11,761 --> 00:41:15,013
that can play five different
electronic sentences...
568
00:41:15,014 --> 00:41:18,850
...but more often than not,
he only presses one of them:
569
00:41:18,851 --> 00:41:20,977
"I am in pain."
570
00:41:20,978 --> 00:41:23,313
Every afternoon, the
reflections of sunlight
571
00:41:23,314 --> 00:41:25,816
from the traffic below
cast colorful patterns
572
00:41:25,817 --> 00:41:28,110
across their ceiling.
573
00:41:28,111 --> 00:41:30,070
In the mornings, the
sunlight illuminates.
574
00:41:30,071 --> 00:41:32,572
Matthew's curtain and
makes it look beautiful
575
00:41:32,573 --> 00:41:35,450
even though it's just gray.
576
00:41:35,451 --> 00:41:37,994
His ex-girlfriend's
been visiting lately
577
00:41:37,995 --> 00:41:41,540
and they talk for hours
about current events.
578
00:41:41,541 --> 00:41:46,002
Sometimes they
eat ice cream bars.
579
00:41:46,003 --> 00:41:50,090
It's the happiest
he's been in a long time.
580
00:41:59,809 --> 00:42:01,977
Bill is introduced
to a new doctor
581
00:42:01,978 --> 00:42:03,979
and given a short interview.
582
00:42:03,980 --> 00:42:05,605
He doesn't know
what month it is,
583
00:42:05,606 --> 00:42:07,941
but he's aware
he's in a hospital.
584
00:42:07,942 --> 00:42:10,110
He can't remember his address,
585
00:42:10,111 --> 00:42:13,613
so he supposes he must
have always lived here.
586
00:42:13,614 --> 00:42:16,950
His vision's a blurry, and
he no longer has strength
587
00:42:16,951 --> 00:42:19,119
in the grip of his left hand.
588
00:42:19,120 --> 00:42:23,039
Bill is asked to describe
a series of photographs.
589
00:42:23,040 --> 00:42:26,918
He's able to put words to
many of these objects...
590
00:42:26,919 --> 00:42:30,881
...but is very confused
by some of the others.
591
00:42:33,926 --> 00:42:36,636
He also has difficulty
distinguishing the faces
592
00:42:36,637 --> 00:42:39,264
of people he knows.
593
00:42:39,265 --> 00:42:43,185
All of these people
really just look the same.
594
00:42:43,186 --> 00:42:45,478
And though he can recognize
his ex-girlfriend
595
00:42:45,479 --> 00:42:48,440
because of her long hair...
596
00:42:48,441 --> 00:42:51,359
...he can't
remember her name.
597
00:42:52,862 --> 00:42:53,820
He tells the doctor
598
00:42:53,821 --> 00:42:57,282
he has a fish living
inside of his head,
599
00:42:57,283 --> 00:43:00,118
"possibly a trout."
600
00:43:00,119 --> 00:43:02,662
It'll be another night
before it dawns on him
601
00:43:02,663 --> 00:43:04,789
that something seems missing.
602
00:43:04,790 --> 00:43:08,293
All the memories the doctor
asked him to recall today
603
00:43:08,294 --> 00:43:10,837
are suddenly out of his grasp.
604
00:43:10,838 --> 00:43:14,841
So many years of
faces and moments...
605
00:43:14,842 --> 00:43:17,594
...are mostly just a
vague feeling now.
606
00:43:19,847 --> 00:43:24,226
The years are slipping
out of his head.
607
00:43:27,271 --> 00:43:29,564
Yesterday, a
gardener with a hose
608
00:43:29,565 --> 00:43:33,026
blasted all the sparrow nests
from the second-story awning
609
00:43:33,027 --> 00:43:34,694
of the building next door...
610
00:43:34,695 --> 00:43:39,741
...raining mud and little broken
eggs into the parking lot.
611
00:43:41,619 --> 00:43:42,994
Another test has been arranged
612
00:43:42,995 --> 00:43:45,914
and Bill is taken
to a white room.
613
00:43:45,915 --> 00:43:48,250
A radiologist makes an incision
614
00:43:48,251 --> 00:43:51,878
and pushes a catheter
into his femoral artery.
615
00:43:51,879 --> 00:43:54,214
The catheter is carefully
pushed through his stomach
616
00:43:54,215 --> 00:43:57,133
to his heart, up
through his chest,
617
00:43:57,134 --> 00:44:00,345
and into his head, where a
special dye is introduced
618
00:44:00,346 --> 00:44:03,974
to flood the blood vessels
in his brain for X-rays.
619
00:44:03,975 --> 00:44:07,602
Bill is then asked to raise
his arms and count to twenty.
620
00:44:07,603 --> 00:44:09,896
A powerful anesthetic
is introduced
621
00:44:09,897 --> 00:44:13,984
to temporarily shut down the
left hemisphere of his brain.
622
00:44:13,985 --> 00:44:16,236
And for the
remaining half of Bill,
623
00:44:16,237 --> 00:44:17,946
the test begi--
624
00:44:17,947 --> 00:44:20,907
"Bill?
Can you hear me?"
625
00:44:20,908 --> 00:44:23,201
"Bill, can
you look up here for me?
626
00:44:23,202 --> 00:44:25,745
Can you tell me
what these objects are?"
627
00:44:25,746 --> 00:44:28,665
"Bill, can
you tell me what this is?"
628
00:44:28,666 --> 00:44:31,751
"Bill, can you
add up these numbers for me?"
629
00:44:31,752 --> 00:44:33,420
"You're doing great, Bill."
630
00:44:33,421 --> 00:44:34,337
"Okay.
631
00:44:34,338 --> 00:44:35,755
And what do these
numbers add up to?"
632
00:44:35,756 --> 00:44:37,716
"Look at me, Bill, look at me.
633
00:44:37,717 --> 00:44:38,967
Bill, look at me."
634
00:44:38,968 --> 00:44:41,261
"Okay, Bill, and
can you tell me who this is?"
635
00:44:41,262 --> 00:44:42,762
"It's okay,
Bill, you're doing great."
636
00:44:42,763 --> 00:44:45,056
"And can
you tell me who this is?"
637
00:44:45,057 --> 00:44:47,976
"Bill, can
you tell me who this is?
638
00:44:47,977 --> 00:44:49,686
Do you remember her?"
639
00:45:05,369 --> 00:45:07,537
Today she's joined
by her boyfriend,
640
00:45:07,538 --> 00:45:10,623
a young man named Steve who
spends most of the afternoon
641
00:45:10,624 --> 00:45:13,585
in the corner quietly staring
at Matthew's curtain.
642
00:45:13,586 --> 00:45:15,253
"I am in pain."
643
00:45:15,254 --> 00:45:17,797
The doctor explains to her
that Bill may be having trouble
644
00:45:17,798 --> 00:45:21,092
understanding past tense
and present tense.
645
00:45:21,093 --> 00:45:23,136
It may also be difficult
for Bill to understand
646
00:45:23,137 --> 00:45:26,598
which of his memories are
real, and which are imagined.
647
00:45:26,599 --> 00:45:29,392
When the brain is confronted
with major memory loss,
648
00:45:29,393 --> 00:45:33,438
it often fills in the blanks
with confabulated stories:
649
00:45:33,439 --> 00:45:37,484
False memories, people
who never existed...
650
00:45:37,485 --> 00:45:42,030
...invented conclusions to make
everyday life less confusing...
651
00:45:42,031 --> 00:45:46,201
and to somehow rationalize
what's happening to him.
652
00:45:48,079 --> 00:45:50,663
Today they will chat awkwardly.
653
00:45:50,664 --> 00:45:53,249
Bill's been unable
to stay on one subject
654
00:45:53,250 --> 00:45:54,751
for more than a few moments
655
00:45:54,752 --> 00:45:57,545
and seems to get
easily frustrated.
656
00:45:57,546 --> 00:45:59,214
She will say she didn't know
657
00:45:59,215 --> 00:46:01,591
why she'd brought Steve
along yesterday,
658
00:46:01,592 --> 00:46:03,718
and admits he'd been so shaken
659
00:46:03,719 --> 00:46:07,180
by the experience that
he quietly cried in the car
660
00:46:07,181 --> 00:46:10,350
on the way home.
661
00:46:10,351 --> 00:46:13,561
The sparrows have
already begun to rebuild,
662
00:46:13,562 --> 00:46:17,607
but he's not sure if he
feels happy or sad for them.
663
00:46:21,153 --> 00:46:22,570
He dreams he's part
of a rocket crew,
664
00:46:22,571 --> 00:46:24,864
re-entering the
earth's atmosphere.
665
00:46:24,865 --> 00:46:26,741
As they rapidly
descend, it's believed
666
00:46:26,742 --> 00:46:29,077
that eating ice cream bars
will help prevent them
667
00:46:29,078 --> 00:46:30,912
from having strokes.
668
00:46:30,913 --> 00:46:33,998
As the heat intensifies,
Bill eats his ice cream bar
669
00:46:33,999 --> 00:46:36,793
and secretly hopes that if
something bad had to happen,
670
00:46:36,794 --> 00:46:38,294
the ship wouldn't explode,
671
00:46:38,295 --> 00:46:41,297
but just that everyone
else would have strokes.
672
00:46:41,298 --> 00:46:43,174
A final battery of
tests are ordered
673
00:46:43,175 --> 00:46:46,052
to positively rule out
the chance of surgery.
674
00:46:46,053 --> 00:46:49,347
Highly drugged, Bill will have
no memory of these tests
675
00:46:49,348 --> 00:46:51,558
other than a terrible
noise to his right...
676
00:46:52,810 --> 00:46:55,979
...and a brief vision
of a seahorse...
677
00:46:55,980 --> 00:46:57,188
...and a falling tree.
678
00:47:12,913 --> 00:47:14,372
This morning he can't remember
679
00:47:14,373 --> 00:47:17,542
the last time his ex-girlfriend
had come to visit.
680
00:47:17,543 --> 00:47:21,129
It could be hours...
or maybe it's been weeks.
681
00:47:21,130 --> 00:47:24,507
His uncle, whom Bill had not
even noticed in the room,
682
00:47:24,508 --> 00:47:27,802
looks out the window and
talks about Bill's mother.
683
00:47:27,803 --> 00:47:31,806
Then he says, "It's too bad
people don't say how they feel
684
00:47:31,807 --> 00:47:35,935
until it's already too late."
685
00:47:35,936 --> 00:47:38,313
And then he says nothing.
686
00:47:38,314 --> 00:47:40,899
The TV in the room
is always on mute
687
00:47:40,900 --> 00:47:42,442
and behind his uncle's head,
688
00:47:42,443 --> 00:47:46,613
Bill watches a superhero
quietly melt a monster's face.
689
00:47:46,614 --> 00:47:49,824
His doctor visits and asks if
Bill might be more comfortable
690
00:47:49,825 --> 00:47:52,744
at home for a few days
under family care,
691
00:47:52,745 --> 00:47:54,370
until the final results come in.
692
00:47:57,666 --> 00:47:59,751
A neighbor must have
put these groceries
693
00:47:59,752 --> 00:48:01,252
in his apartment for him,
694
00:48:01,253 --> 00:48:03,796
which was a very nice gesture.
695
00:48:08,969 --> 00:48:12,514
It's kind of a
really nice day...
696
00:48:12,515 --> 00:48:16,392
he decides to walk
around the block.
697
00:48:16,393 --> 00:48:18,895
On the side of the road, he
sees a woman's tennis shoe
698
00:48:18,896 --> 00:48:24,484
filled with leaves, and it fills
him with inexplicable sadness.
699
00:48:24,485 --> 00:48:27,362
He walks down his side street...
700
00:48:27,363 --> 00:48:31,491
...alongside the bridge
past the farmer's market...
701
00:48:31,492 --> 00:48:34,494
...and back up
the main thoroughfare.
702
00:48:44,129 --> 00:48:47,507
It's kind of
a really nice day...
703
00:48:47,508 --> 00:48:51,010
he decides to take a
walk around the block.
704
00:48:51,011 --> 00:48:53,596
On the side of the road, he
sees a woman's tennis shoe
705
00:48:53,597 --> 00:48:59,727
filled with leaves, and it fills
him with inexplicable sadness.
706
00:48:59,728 --> 00:49:02,397
He walks down his side street...
707
00:49:02,398 --> 00:49:07,151
...alongside the bridge
past the farmer's market...
708
00:49:07,152 --> 00:49:10,446
...and back up the
main thoroughfare.
709
00:49:17,496 --> 00:49:20,415
It's kind of a
really nice day...
710
00:49:20,416 --> 00:49:23,751
he decides to take a walk
around the blo--
711
00:49:30,050 --> 00:49:32,468
That hand is
dropping everything.
712
00:49:36,348 --> 00:49:41,185
Wasn't he supposed
to call somebody?
713
00:49:41,186 --> 00:49:44,439
What was her name?
714
00:49:47,985 --> 00:49:52,989
What in the hell is
wrong with this mug?
715
00:49:52,990 --> 00:49:57,076
Does he really
need this much food?
716
00:49:57,077 --> 00:50:01,998
There's a doctor on
his answering machine...
717
00:50:01,999 --> 00:50:06,711
has he been sick?
718
00:50:06,712 --> 00:50:10,173
A doctor carefully explains
test results with him.
719
00:50:10,174 --> 00:50:12,383
He goes over numbers
and information
720
00:50:12,384 --> 00:50:15,428
that Bill doesn't understand,
and reiterates things
721
00:50:15,429 --> 00:50:17,347
that Bill doesn't remember.
722
00:50:17,348 --> 00:50:19,766
He's momentarily quiet...
723
00:50:19,767 --> 00:50:23,686
...and then tells Bill he
doesn't have very long to live.
724
00:50:33,197 --> 00:50:36,407
It's kind of a really nice day.
725
00:50:36,408 --> 00:50:39,118
He decides to walk
around the block.
726
00:50:39,119 --> 00:50:40,370
On the side of the road he sees
727
00:50:40,371 --> 00:50:42,580
a woman's tennis shoe
filled with leaves,
728
00:50:42,581 --> 00:50:44,624
and it fills him with
inexplicable sadness.
729
00:50:44,625 --> 00:50:47,377
He walks down his side street
and sees striking colors
730
00:50:47,378 --> 00:50:48,961
in the faces of the
people around him...
731
00:50:48,962 --> 00:50:51,381
...details in these
beautiful brick walls
732
00:50:51,382 --> 00:50:53,800
and weeds that he must
have passed every day
733
00:50:53,801 --> 00:50:54,634
but never noticed.
734
00:50:54,635 --> 00:50:56,302
The air smells different,
735
00:50:56,303 --> 00:50:58,680
brighter somehow, and the
currents under the bridge
736
00:50:58,681 --> 00:51:02,809
look strange and vivid and
the sun is warming his face
737
00:51:02,810 --> 00:51:06,312
and the world is clumsy
and beautiful and new.
738
00:51:07,690 --> 00:51:09,857
And it's as though
he's been sleepwalking,
739
00:51:09,858 --> 00:51:11,984
asleep for God knows how long,
740
00:51:11,985 --> 00:51:16,531
and something has
violently shaken him... awake.
741
00:51:16,532 --> 00:51:20,076
His bathmats are gorgeous.
742
00:51:22,037 --> 00:51:25,123
The grain patterns in
his cheap wood cabinets
743
00:51:25,124 --> 00:51:27,834
vibrate something
deep within him.
744
00:51:27,835 --> 00:51:30,878
He's fascinated by the way
his paper towels drink water.
745
00:51:30,879 --> 00:51:33,631
He's never really
appreciated these things...
746
00:51:33,632 --> 00:51:35,133
all this detail.
747
00:51:35,134 --> 00:51:36,342
He's never noticed...
748
00:51:36,343 --> 00:51:38,261
...detail... ...he's alive...
749
00:51:38,262 --> 00:51:38,886
...he's never noticed...
750
00:51:38,887 --> 00:51:40,847
...he's alive...
751
00:51:40,848 --> 00:51:45,518
he's alive...
752
00:51:45,519 --> 00:51:47,854
The stars rattle
him to the core...
753
00:51:47,855 --> 00:51:50,022
how these lights
have traveled for tens
754
00:51:50,023 --> 00:51:52,316
of millions of years to
reach him at this moment...
755
00:51:52,317 --> 00:51:54,277
...how somewhere far
away our own sun looks
756
00:51:54,278 --> 00:51:55,319
just like one of these...
757
00:51:55,320 --> 00:51:57,613
...how many of the
stars no longer even exist,
758
00:51:57,614 --> 00:51:59,741
but whose ancient light
is just reaching him now...
759
00:51:59,742 --> 00:52:01,826
an impression from a ghost...
760
00:52:01,827 --> 00:52:04,704
...an amazing, infinite
time machine every night
761
00:52:04,705 --> 00:52:08,249
above his head that he's
ignored for most of his life.
762
00:52:08,250 --> 00:52:10,710
He wants to stop people
in the street and say,
763
00:52:10,711 --> 00:52:12,879
"Isn't this amazing?
764
00:52:12,880 --> 00:52:15,631
Isn't everything amazing?"
765
00:52:15,632 --> 00:52:17,800
He runs to the car rental place
766
00:52:17,801 --> 00:52:20,553
and finds himself a
freeway and drives all night,
767
00:52:20,554 --> 00:52:23,723
following directions in his head
to a place he can't remember...
768
00:52:23,724 --> 00:52:27,143
absorbing everything he can
before it all fades again
769
00:52:27,144 --> 00:52:28,853
with the morning.
770
00:52:33,901 --> 00:52:37,278
He's got the keys to this car.
771
00:52:39,740 --> 00:52:42,825
He also has keys to a motel
room but he can't remember
772
00:52:42,826 --> 00:52:45,536
the last time he slept.
773
00:52:45,537 --> 00:52:50,374
He's sitting in the sun
outside of a laundromat.
774
00:52:50,375 --> 00:52:54,170
An older guy in a baseball
cap stands at a pay phone
775
00:52:54,171 --> 00:52:57,840
and nervously lifts and
hangs up the receiver.
776
00:53:12,689 --> 00:53:14,941
He asks to borrow Bill's pencil
777
00:53:14,942 --> 00:53:17,443
and then places a
call to his daughter.
778
00:53:17,444 --> 00:53:20,321
He tells her he loves her
and he's proud of her
779
00:53:20,322 --> 00:53:24,116
and that one day soon,
"We'll finally have our day."
780
00:53:24,117 --> 00:53:26,869
Then he says,
"Fantastic, fantastic,
781
00:53:26,870 --> 00:53:28,454
and hangs up the phone.
782
00:53:28,455 --> 00:53:29,705
Although it looks like the wind
783
00:53:29,706 --> 00:53:31,082
had been knocked out of him,
784
00:53:31,083 --> 00:53:34,836
he presents the pencil back to
Bill with a little flourish,
785
00:53:34,837 --> 00:53:37,588
as though proud no
harm had come to it
786
00:53:37,589 --> 00:53:39,340
while in his possession.
787
00:53:41,593 --> 00:53:44,887
He dreams of fog on
the dark edge of a cliff,
788
00:53:44,888 --> 00:53:46,472
where hundreds of feet below,
789
00:53:46,473 --> 00:53:49,642
the deep sea swells
up against the rocks.
790
00:53:49,643 --> 00:53:52,144
And if you lean over the
edge and squint your eyes
791
00:53:52,145 --> 00:53:55,481
just right, you can barely
make out the gray shapes
792
00:53:55,482 --> 00:53:57,984
of all the cars that had
driven off the cliff
793
00:53:57,985 --> 00:54:02,071
over the years, sunken
deep beneath the surface.
794
00:54:02,072 --> 00:54:05,157
And as each wave
washes slowly over them,
795
00:54:05,158 --> 00:54:07,994
the undertow quietly
pulls their headlights
796
00:54:07,995 --> 00:54:10,997
on and off...
797
00:54:10,998 --> 00:54:14,792
...on an endless loop, growing
slowly dimmer over the years
798
00:54:14,793 --> 00:54:18,504
until the day comes that
they fade completely.
799
00:54:25,721 --> 00:54:27,763
He's at a house now.
800
00:54:27,764 --> 00:54:31,058
When he was little, he would run
through a house just like this
801
00:54:31,059 --> 00:54:33,185
with a flashlight
pointed at the ceiling,
802
00:54:33,186 --> 00:54:36,814
pretending he was an astronaut
soaring over the moon.
803
00:54:37,399 --> 00:54:39,108
A familiar person's here.
804
00:54:39,109 --> 00:54:40,902
He's not sure how he found him,
805
00:54:40,903 --> 00:54:43,237
maybe he's been followed,
but they're talking now
806
00:54:43,238 --> 00:54:44,906
and Bill is given an address.
807
00:54:44,907 --> 00:54:48,117
An address his mother never
wanted him to have, he says,
808
00:54:48,118 --> 00:54:50,161
but it's important
Bill have it now.
809
00:54:50,162 --> 00:54:52,580
An address where he
can find his father.
810
00:54:52,581 --> 00:54:54,123
Bill's real father.
811
00:54:54,124 --> 00:54:56,834
A man who was gone
before he was born,
812
00:54:56,835 --> 00:55:01,047
a man he'd only met once
but was too young to know it.
813
00:55:04,551 --> 00:55:07,053
And he's driving again
now, for several hours,
814
00:55:07,054 --> 00:55:08,262
he's not sure...
815
00:55:08,263 --> 00:55:11,182
...and with every mile he
loses a few more memories...
816
00:55:11,183 --> 00:55:12,892
...and he finds
another motel,
817
00:55:12,893 --> 00:55:14,936
and that night he eats
a lot of ice cream
818
00:55:14,937 --> 00:55:17,897
and doesn't remember
his dreams at all...
819
00:55:20,734 --> 00:55:24,028
He's in a nursing home...
820
00:55:24,029 --> 00:55:26,572
is he old?
821
00:55:26,573 --> 00:55:30,618
A room full of windows...
822
00:55:30,619 --> 00:55:32,787
And he gives a name on a paper
that's not in his handwriting
823
00:55:32,788 --> 00:55:34,413
to the front counter...
824
00:55:34,414 --> 00:55:37,708
...and a frail old man is being
wheeled to see him now...
825
00:55:37,709 --> 00:55:40,336
...a man who's been
here for over ten years,
826
00:55:40,337 --> 00:55:45,007
but rarely had a visitor.
827
00:55:49,805 --> 00:55:52,598
Neither of these two people
remember why they're there,
828
00:55:52,599 --> 00:55:55,393
or who exactly
this other person is.
829
00:55:55,394 --> 00:56:00,398
But they sit and they
watch a game show together.
830
00:56:02,526 --> 00:56:04,610
And when it's time
for bill to leave,
831
00:56:04,611 --> 00:56:07,530
he stands and says
something beautiful to him.
832
00:56:10,325 --> 00:56:12,743
And neither of them understand
what he means exactly,
833
00:56:12,744 --> 00:56:15,579
but the old man
begins to cry anyway...
834
00:56:15,580 --> 00:56:17,748
and they will never
see each other again.
835
00:56:20,419 --> 00:56:22,044
He's driving a car.
836
00:56:22,045 --> 00:56:24,588
And every time he
realizes he's driving a car,
837
00:56:24,589 --> 00:56:27,466
he figures he should
just keep driving the car.
838
00:56:27,467 --> 00:56:29,260
And sometimes he sings.
839
00:56:29,261 --> 00:56:30,803
And sometimes he cries.
840
00:56:30,804 --> 00:56:32,888
And the left side of
his body is beginning
841
00:56:32,889 --> 00:56:34,807
to grow slack and numb.
842
00:56:34,808 --> 00:56:37,393
And all he wants to do
is just keep driving,
843
00:56:37,394 --> 00:56:39,020
somehow to keep on driving,
844
00:56:39,021 --> 00:56:40,896
he has no more
directions to follow
845
00:56:40,897 --> 00:56:43,858
but he fills the car with
gas again and again
846
00:56:43,859 --> 00:56:45,526
and keeps going into the night,
847
00:56:45,527 --> 00:56:49,905
he wants to keep going,
he wants to go forever...
848
00:57:13,722 --> 00:57:16,932
It's such a beautiful day.
849
00:57:21,855 --> 00:57:23,189
Wait a minute.
850
00:57:23,190 --> 00:57:25,524
He's not going to die here...
851
00:57:25,525 --> 00:57:26,442
but he doesn't die here.
852
00:57:26,443 --> 00:57:26,901
No, no, no, no, no.
853
00:57:26,902 --> 00:57:27,401
Bill, get up.
854
00:57:27,402 --> 00:57:28,069
Bill?
855
00:57:28,070 --> 00:57:28,694
Get up, Bill.
856
00:57:28,695 --> 00:57:30,071
No, he can't die here.
857
00:57:30,072 --> 00:57:31,322
He's not gonna die here.
858
00:57:31,323 --> 00:57:32,907
He can't ever die.
859
00:57:32,908 --> 00:57:34,200
Bill?...
860
00:57:34,201 --> 00:57:35,785
Bill?
861
00:57:41,416 --> 00:57:44,543
He will spend hundreds of
years traveling the world,
862
00:57:44,544 --> 00:57:47,838
learning all there is to know.
863
00:57:47,839 --> 00:57:51,092
He will learn every language.
864
00:57:51,093 --> 00:57:55,054
He will read every book.
865
00:57:55,055 --> 00:57:59,141
He will know every land.
866
00:57:59,142 --> 00:58:01,560
He will spend thousands of years
867
00:58:01,561 --> 00:58:04,897
creating stunning works of art.
868
00:58:07,526 --> 00:58:11,278
He will learn to meditate
to control all pain.
869
00:58:11,279 --> 00:58:14,782
As wars will be fought...
870
00:58:14,783 --> 00:58:17,868
and great loves found...
871
00:58:20,455 --> 00:58:23,040
...and lost.
872
00:58:23,041 --> 00:58:25,709
And found...
873
00:58:28,213 --> 00:58:30,256
...lost...
874
00:58:30,257 --> 00:58:31,507
and found.
875
00:58:32,926 --> 00:58:35,136
And found...
876
00:58:35,137 --> 00:58:37,429
...and found...
877
00:58:37,430 --> 00:58:42,143
...and memories built upon
memories until life runs
878
00:58:42,144 --> 00:58:44,687
on an endless loop.
879
00:58:50,443 --> 00:58:54,905
He will father hundreds of
thousands of children...
880
00:58:54,906 --> 00:58:56,949
...whose own
exponential offspring
881
00:58:56,950 --> 00:59:01,495
he'll slowly lose track
of through the years.
882
00:59:01,496 --> 00:59:04,832
Whose millions of beautiful
lives will all eventually
883
00:59:04,833 --> 00:59:07,793
be swept again from the Earth.
884
00:59:11,464 --> 00:59:15,843
And still, Bill will continue.
885
00:59:15,844 --> 00:59:21,807
He will learn more about life
than any being in history.
886
00:59:21,808 --> 00:59:26,812
But death will forever
be a stranger to him.
887
00:59:26,813 --> 00:59:28,647
People will come and go,
888
00:59:28,648 --> 00:59:31,650
until names lose all meaning.
889
00:59:31,651 --> 00:59:33,569
Until people lose all meaning
890
00:59:33,570 --> 00:59:35,821
and vanish entirely
from the world.
891
00:59:39,701 --> 00:59:45,289
And still, Bill will live on.
892
00:59:45,290 --> 00:59:49,126
He will befriend the next
inhabitants of the Earth.
893
00:59:49,127 --> 00:59:53,380
Beings of light who
revere him as a god.
894
00:59:57,677 --> 01:00:02,598
And Bill will outlive them all.
895
01:00:02,599 --> 01:00:07,978
For millions and
millions of years.
896
01:00:07,979 --> 01:00:11,941
Exploring, learning, living...
897
01:00:11,942 --> 01:00:14,818
Until the Earth is
swallowed beneath his feet.
898
01:00:19,241 --> 01:00:22,576
Until the Sun is
long since gone.
899
01:00:26,790 --> 01:00:30,251
Until time loses all meaning
and the moment comes
900
01:00:30,252 --> 01:00:33,379
that he knows only the
positions of the stars...
901
01:00:33,380 --> 01:00:37,841
...and sees them whether
his eyes are closed or open.
902
01:00:37,842 --> 01:00:39,760
Until he forgets his name
903
01:00:39,761 --> 01:00:44,306
and the place where
he'd once come from.
904
01:00:44,307 --> 01:00:47,101
He lives and he lives,
905
01:00:47,102 --> 01:00:50,521
until all of the lights go out.